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hafizah 300989 just average girl next door and extremely petite. don't ever make me mad because trust me,you won't like it. and that is all you need to know. click here for great bargains! friendster
Friday, June 16, 2006
sometimes i ask myself what have i really done to deserve this. have i not made her happy by giving her what she wants,by doing well in school and all? am i really such a terrible person to get all these shoved in my face? doesnt she trust me enough? i read an entry from a friend's blog. and it hit me that i gotta be really strong right now. but im too weak to even get up on my feet after a downfall. ive suffered too much emotionally. isnt it time God really gives me happiness in life? sometimes we shouldnt ask for things,we should be thankful. but im sick and tired of pretending to be alright at all times when im actually not. when he came into my life,i felt like i was really being loved for the first time although it might not be love. but what if it disappears,just like those from the past? i know God is always fair. and all these are just obstacles i have to face. it fucking sucks to be feeling this way. but behind every setback there's a reason for it to happen. and i hope that after all these setbacks i'll be a stronger person. to zahidah and norman,thanks for the listening ear (: |